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Will she read this? I wonder..

Posted by Dan. Ee. on 5:55 PM
Unless I promote it vociferously - or in such an aggressive manner that would shame most telemarketers -, she would quite not. Or unless I just, you know, pop this post up like I did the other day in an innocuous conversation. She read it and gave one of the posts quite the glowing review.

As usual, I would just downplay it and think it is not up to standards. As always.
I spotted a few grammatical and spelling errors in there, and I saw the structural placing of most of my sentences were more than flawed - it was a disaster. Reading that post was like looking at my backyard; so many plants, so pretty plants, but they're all over the place and surrounded by weeds of different shapes and sizes.

Anyways,

My self-shooting literature review isn't something that I want to discuss here.

I just want to say that little gesture, the offer to read what I write, could make me happy. Really happy. Ten bottles of different liquors from different countries with petai sambal while in a BMW happy. I was ecstatic.

But I always have been happy whenever she even remotely, talked to me. Or just  spoke, briefly.

Ah world,
If only she realize how happy she makes me feel no matter when or where she messages me. Yes I admit, I still have more than just feelings for her. Always has been for these 12 years.
Like today, when I saw the messages, although short, was enough to send me on a mad jumping dance around the house. Or that message earlier! Although short, again, fireworks were doing the "Carnivale" in response to that.


Yeah I am abit exaggerating but honestly you guys.
I missed that feeling of being excessively happy from hearing from her at all.

Pathetic huh?


Oh well. Hardly she ever traverses this part of the internet - at least she won't read this. This whole thing is a  sad mess, a sombre attempt to engulf my emotions in words.

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